Another piece of advice

So this week our Circuit Overseer together with his wife and a Sub-C.O. visited our congregation. Today, Friday, I got the privilege to be accompanied by the Sub-C.O. whom we fondly called as Kuya Mond. He gave me a piece of advice in Cebuano but when translated it means: 

Mag-asawa ka ng elder. Para may makakasama ka sa pangangaral, sa pagdalo ng pulong at sa pananalangin sa gabi. 

Hahahahahaha. I laughed at first but then realized that his advice is heartfelt and is very sincere. Thank you po Kuya Mond sa magandang advice. I’ll keep that in mind. 😊


Zero calorie smile na nga pero siopao face pa din. 😂😡😐

And then just like that, everything became clearer. 

I used to always think of endings. I used to think of things going and happening in the ways I wanted to. I always think of what’s convenient for me. To just drop and leave everything behind me. 

But then, maybe I just needed to hear what’s going on inside your head. And your words hit me harder than those of the books and movies that I thought I like. 

Though hurtful, but if this experience means that we get to listen to each other more, say the things that we wanted to say, change the things that we don’t like and become better persons then I’m keeping it. 

I hope we can listen to each other’s silent hearts more often, look closely at what our eyes fail to see and feel what is skindeep. 

Starting Fresh!

  • Brave girl, you were made for far more beautiful things. 🌻
  • Sometimes you just have to start over again and that’s okay! 🌈
  • There are far better things ahead than any we leave behind. 🍀
  • When you’re young, everything feels like the end of the world. But it’s not, it’s just the beginning. You might have to meet a few more jerks but one day, you’re gonna meet a boy who treats you the way you deserve to be treated, like the sun rises and sets with you. 💛👨 

Cause every time you hurt me, the less that I cry. And every time you leave me, the quicker these tears dry. And everytime you walk out, the less I love you. Baby we don’t stand a chance it’s sad but it’s true. I’m way too good at goodbyes. 

-Sam Smith

Quarter Life Crisis

Hello WordPress! It’s been a while. (yet again) 

One month has passed since I resigned from work and a lot of things had happened. Out of all these things that I am experiencing right now all I can say is that ADULTING IS SO HARD. 

Well, I’m 25 years old now so maybe that’s why I get to face all the problems in the adult world. Yesterday, I encountered an article on the internet and it says that the adolescence stage is now from 16-24! And with that said, I am officially an adult. 😱 I’m still on the in denial stage to be honest. Haha. 

Anyway, I’m happy to say that after resigning from work I finally found a new job! I am now an English online tutor at Rarejob. It’s convenient because I get to choose my schedule. But just like any other good thing, my new job also has its downside. Because the lesson demand is high on the evenings, I opened lesson slots from 7pm to 12midnight and for the past two days that I’ve worked the slots are always full. So imagine talking nonstop for 5 hours, it’s very exhausting I tell you. After that, I have to accomplish my tutoring notes the next day and it’s time consuming. I hope I’ll get to efficiently find my way around this new field that I entered. 

I’m very thankful for the job because you know I’ve been through a lot of stress when I resigned from my previous work. I have thoughts like “parang bigla akong nawalan ng silbi” so I end up doing every chore that I can in our house to compensate but somehow I still feel unfulfilled. Hahahuhu. I guess that’s how it is when you’re used to working everyday. Imagine I’ve been working since I was 19 so staying at home is something that’ll take some time for me to get used to. 

Aside from that, I’m being a little paranoid about relationships. Cause you see all these people around me ask me when will I settle down and have my own family. I mean down to my very heart I know I want to spend my future with my boyfriend but I can’t help but think of a lot of other things. Maybe it’s because of the pressure around me. I know we’re not ready at this point to take our relationship to another level. I mean we barely talk about things that are more important. Every time we have a problem, what happens is that we just let time pass by and then never talk about the problem anymore. Somehow I feel it all piling up inside me. As a result, I sometimes lose patience and throw tempers at him. 

And aside from that, what bothers me most is our compatibility. 😥😭😢 I mean our lifestyle is very different from each other. I’m a very simple person that wants simple things in life. Our goals and priorities are not the same anymore. Our opinions and beliefs contradicts most of the time. And it breaks my heart everytime I think about it. I’m sure I love him but is love enough to keep us going?

So right now, I’m having difficulty in sleeping because of my work and my relationship. I have a lot of pimples on my chin and eyebags so dark I look like a zombie. My left ear aching because of my headset that I wear 4-5 hrs every night for my classes. Eyes and head that are starting to ache too but I’m still choosing to smile. 

 I pray to stay lighthearted always as I pass through this quarter life crisis. 

I Will

Who knows how long I’ve loved you? 

You know I love you still. 

Will I wait a lonely lifetime?

If you want me to I will. 

For if I ever saw you, 

I didn’t catch your name. 

But it never really mattered. 

I will always feel the same.

Love you forever and forever. 

Love you with all my heart. 

Love you whenever we’re together. 

Love you when we’re apart.

And when at last I find you,

Your song will fill the air. 

Sing it loud so I can hear you. 

Make it easy to be near you. 

For the things you do endear you to me. 

Oh you know I will. 

I will. 

– The Beatles