Hello WordPress! It’s been a while. (yet again)
One month has passed since I resigned from work and a lot of things had happened. Out of all these things that I am experiencing right now all I can say is that ADULTING IS SO HARD.
Well, I’m 25 years old now so maybe that’s why I get to face all the problems in the adult world. Yesterday, I encountered an article on the internet and it says that the adolescence stage is now from 16-24! And with that said, I am officially an adult. 😱 I’m still on the in denial stage to be honest. Haha.
Anyway, I’m happy to say that after resigning from work I finally found a new job! I am now an English online tutor at Rarejob. It’s convenient because I get to choose my schedule. But just like any other good thing, my new job also has its downside. Because the lesson demand is high on the evenings, I opened lesson slots from 7pm to 12midnight and for the past two days that I’ve worked the slots are always full. So imagine talking nonstop for 5 hours, it’s very exhausting I tell you. After that, I have to accomplish my tutoring notes the next day and it’s time consuming. I hope I’ll get to efficiently find my way around this new field that I entered.
I’m very thankful for the job because you know I’ve been through a lot of stress when I resigned from my previous work. I have thoughts like “parang bigla akong nawalan ng silbi” so I end up doing every chore that I can in our house to compensate but somehow I still feel unfulfilled. Hahahuhu. I guess that’s how it is when you’re used to working everyday. Imagine I’ve been working since I was 19 so staying at home is something that’ll take some time for me to get used to.
Aside from that, I’m being a little paranoid about relationships. Cause you see all these people around me ask me when will I settle down and have my own family. I mean down to my very heart I know I want to spend my future with my boyfriend but I can’t help but think of a lot of other things. Maybe it’s because of the pressure around me. I know we’re not ready at this point to take our relationship to another level. I mean we barely talk about things that are more important. Every time we have a problem, what happens is that we just let time pass by and then never talk about the problem anymore. Somehow I feel it all piling up inside me. As a result, I sometimes lose patience and throw tempers at him.
And aside from that, what bothers me most is our compatibility. 😥😭😢 I mean our lifestyle is very different from each other. I’m a very simple person that wants simple things in life. Our goals and priorities are not the same anymore. Our opinions and beliefs contradicts most of the time. And it breaks my heart everytime I think about it. I’m sure I love him but is love enough to keep us going?
So right now, I’m having difficulty in sleeping because of my work and my relationship. I have a lot of pimples on my chin and eyebags so dark I look like a zombie. My left ear aching because of my headset that I wear 4-5 hrs every night for my classes. Eyes and head that are starting to ache too but I’m still choosing to smile.
I pray to stay lighthearted always as I pass through this quarter life crisis.