“It’s funny almost: how easily you can lose yourself, but how difficult it is to find yourself again.”
Lately, I’ve been feeling a bit bothered of how I seemed to be out of focus nowadays. You see I’m the type to have plans every minute, every day of my life and somehow letting days pass without making any plans ahead of time drives me nuts.
I don’t know, call it OCD or whatever but I think I’m in one of those times again where I need to just breathe and think. I feel like time is slipping through my hands like sand and I don’t want to look back and find myself regretting over things that I can’t get back. I feel useless honestly. I feel like I’m dong things half-heartedly. I feel so mediocre.
This isn’t me.
I want to find myself again. I’m dying to feel the passion and perseverance yet again, the leap of faith, the pushing-myself-to-the-limits, the I’ll-never-give-up spirit.
What to do. What to do.
I’ll figure this one out. But I’ll be out of social networking sites as of now.
Say what you wanna say but,
THE LION DOESN’T LOSE SLEEP OVER THE OPINION OF A SHEEP.
Most of the times I think of barging into your door, taking your hand and just running away from everything. From everyone.
Never thought this would happen, gotta let it sink in.
Don’t know; know what I’m feeling. I must be dreaming.
Suitcase, band aids.
Pulling back out the driveway.
You go, I’ll stay.
You can keep all the memories.
I thought I was the best thing that ever happened to you.
I thought you love me the most.
I don’t know why I cried but I think it’s cause I remembered for the first time,
Since I hated you that I USED TO LOVE YOU.
Straight right into the feels! Hay LSS pa more KC.
While almost everyone’s issue is who to vote on Monday, ang issue ko ay kung pano ba masasaulo ASAP ang kantang ‘to. Lol.
I will never be the pretty girl. I know that for a fact. I’m not the type to get a gazillion likes every time I change my profile picture. I can’t make people turn their heads when I walk inside a room but that’s okay.
I will never be the pretty girl and that’s totally fine with me.
When we were younger my Mom used to tell me that I’m not the stunner type. My beauty isn’t the kind to make you swoon at first glance but the kind that needs further looking and once you find it, I’ll catch your eye and I’ll look prettier in your eyes as time passes by. I think my Mom told me that so I won’t be insecure of how beautiful my other sisters are. (I’m thankful for the effort but really Mom, I get what you really meant.)
Btw, this is not a post to rant about my insecurities but for self-acceptance.
Okay, so now we all know I was and never will be the pretty girl and it’s okay. Why? Because I don’t want to settle for something as temporary as looks are. I’ll admit I get insecure too. I grew up to be a shy, insecure lady who tried and failed to be one of the pretty faces. But my point is that now I know what I want in life. I don’t want to be someone who’s known just for her beauty. I’m always after those who have substance. I want to influence other people’s minds and hearts. I want to touch their souls.
I believe that your looks is the least you can offer to the world. But no offense to those who are granted with amazing gene pools! Hahaha. I am a fan of pretty faces, too.
So, I choose to be the smart girl, the happy girl, the kind girl, the hardworking girl, the go-getter girl, the funny/corny girl,the I-will-never-leave-your-side girl and the I-can-love-you-forever girl!
What kind of girl are you choosing to be today? 🙂
(inspired by an article I read today)